Why ‘Come Back To Earth’ by Mac Miller is a masterpiece and so relatable

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My two favorite things about music are the beats and how relatable lyrics can be. It impresses me more when artists write their own songs, especially about personal feelings and experiences. ‘Come Back To Earth’ is a song that I really related to when I was going through a bit of darkness five months ago. When I listen to it now, I feel so many different emotions. Mainly I feel sadness; this song reminds me of pain from what I went through and felt, but I actually mainly feel sad for Malcolm. I genuinely feel the pain and sadness in his voice, and the depressive state he had to have been in when writing and producing this song. I definitely feel chills when I listen to this song…it’s crazy what a single person can be going through and no one even knows, but here he is laying it out for all of us to listen to.

I love this song so much, and it’s weird to love a sad song, but I love it for what it means to me, and how it makes me feel that Mac and I were connected for those two minutes and forty two seconds. I really want to break down most of the lyrics in this song, just to point out how truly deep this song is and why it’s so relatable for so many people.


My regrets look just like texts I shouldn’t send.

And I’ve got neighbors they’re more like strangers,

we could be friends

Here the first lyrics of the whole song is something that we’ve all done. He lays out that the words he has texted were some that he shouldn’t have sent. Not only can you regret sending certain texts, but we can also look back and regret some of the things we say to others. Also, the second and third line scream isolation. To me it sounds like he was very much alone in that house alone, but also in a sense alone in his head and alone in what he was feeling and going through.


In my own way, this feel like living

Some alternate reality

A lot of us are aware of the heavy drug use Mac would do, so to me, this is a reference to that. When on that kind of stuff you feel like a different person, numb from the pain that is currently going on in life. So many people escape reality to find happiness in toxicity. He probably found this “alternate reality” comforting from what he was going through at the time, and it was his form of “living” and coping. Sadly enough, a lot of depressed people (not everyone) go to drugs for relief.

Yeah, oh the things I’d do

To spend a little time in hell

And what I won’t tell you

I’ll probably never even tell myself

These last two line could be an underlying meaning of denial. Obviously it’s unclear what about, but I think he was fully aware of what issues he had, but didn’t want to address them head-on. And I think that’s a very relatable issue we all have on the inside. We all have our demons and flaws, but some of us aren’t willing to bring attention to them to either fix them or live with them. I think he was aware of all the issues that were hard for him, but didn’t want to admit them to himself.

And don’t you know the sunshine don’t feel right

When you inside all day

I wish it was nice out, but it looked like rain

Grey skies and I’m drifting, not living forever

They told me it only gets better

This is the second hardest part of the song for me, because of how chilling it is. He obviously spent many days cooped up in his home, and maybe didn’t get out very much. Again, definitely a thing we do when depressed. The last line screams truth, because I’m sure he was told that specific line multiple times. It was definitely something I was told when I was going through my rough patch. I just wish he could have seen that light at the end of the tunnel because life really does eventually get better.

I just need a way out of my head

I’ll do anything for a way out

Of my head

Now THIS is the hardest part of the song for me personally. I relate to these lines so so much just because when you are going through something, your brain is always eating away at you, and your thoughts don’t ever stop running around, and you seriously just want it to end. I probably cried so many times listening to this song, because I really felt the pain along with him. There were so many times where I wished I could get out of my head and stop the chaotic thoughts that were constantly there.

Being in an unhealthy, unhappy, hard and depressed state of mind is truly the hardest thing to do. It’s hard to do what seemed like “normal” activities at one point in your life, and it’s hard to try to pull yourself out of it. I truly relate to this song on a different level, because life can be so fucking hard sometimes. This song is a masterpiece, honestly. The music is not like his normal upbeat sound. The melody with the lyrics all flowed so well together. The words are relatable and complex. The title alone: ‘Come Back To Earth’ is also probably another remind for others and himself to pull yourself out of this “alternate state”, this hard time, and bring yourself back to the present and push yourself through what you’re going through. This song isn’t a “you got this, you can pull through!” type of song. It’s on the other side of the spectrum. It’s telling us what you feel and think and go through when you’re depressed and extremely down, and for that, I think it should be highly respected and honored.

The Mac we should all remember.

Why You Should Practice Forgiveness

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The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.

Mahatma Gandhi

Self-love, patience, motivation, trust…these are all things that we mentally practice with ourselves, and I think we should add forgiveness to the list. I am definitely one that unintentionally holds grudges or never forgets what a certain person has done to me, but that doesn’t mean I can’t learn to forgive.

Just like everyone else, I have had so many people hurt me in my life. I try really hard to be the best friend I can be, the best girlfriend, the best daughter and sister. I would never intentionally hurt someone, so I always think to myself, “why do these people want to hurt me?” But it shouldn’t be a pity party. Everyone is different, and people do not have the same heart, kindness, or love that you do. So, there is bound to be hurt along the way in our life’s journey. To be strong is to forgive. To be a better person, and to be the best version of yourself, is to start to learn how to forgive.

Forgiveness isn’t just the absence of anger. I think it’s also the presence of self-love, when you actually begin to value yourself.

Tara Westover

Practicing forgiveness is an ongoing lesson for me. I still remember traumatic times in middle school that haunt me to this day. I feel saddened and hurt and angry when I think about that time in my life. But to be able to move on and free myself of this past trauma and hurt, I HAVE to forgive. Tyler Perry said it best:

It’s not an easy journey, to get to a place where you forgive people. But it is such a powerful place, because it frees you.

Tyler Perry

In order to continue life freely, we must move on from these things that gave us pain. It does not mean forget what you have gone through, and your journey, but to learn from this and to move forward as a healthier human being who is capable of forgiveness.

Not only do we need to learn to forgive others, but the hardest part is learning to forgive ourselves. We are our worst and harshest critic. Even if we don’t admit it out loud to ourselves or to others that we messed up, deep down we know when we screwed up. My mom and I were talking about a situation that happened a few months ago and she repeatedly told me that I needed to forgive myself. I hadn’t even realized it at the time, but I was mad at myself. I regretted this specific action and I don’t think I would have thought to forgive myself if my mom didn’t tell me to. We don’t realize how hard we are on ourselves, but sometimes we can be absolutely horrible. We spread love and kindness and forgiveness to others, but where is it when we need to give ourselves some love, kindness, and forgiveness?

Learn to forgive. It is not an overnight recipe, but a lifelong practice. It does take time, but it is so freeing once we release our inner demons of hatred and anger. Let it go, and let yourself feel more love than anger. It isn’t okay when someone hurts us, but it’s also not okay that you make yourself hold onto that hurt longer than you should. Learn to forgive, and learn to let go.

Give Yourself A Break- You’re Doing The Best You Can

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Some days I am at a lose of what my next chapter will be. Right now I’m in the awkward phase where I’m in between two chapters, trying to figure out my transition. To be honest, it all comes down to me building the courage to move forward and to start writing the next page.

Day after day I think about moving away and finally transitioning to the career field I’ve been waiting for and wanting to be in. The concept of moving away is what I want, but then I think about all that I am leaving behind and then the concept loses its beauty just a bit. But moving away is what I need to do to fulfill this desire I have been working for, to be in a field that I actually love. My obstacle at the moment is breaking the barrier of fear and just going for it; as scary as it is to leave all I know and all my memories behind, it’s just something I need to do.

But what I need to remember until then is that, even though I feel like I’m wasting time and not working towards anything, I actually am doing the best I can in this given moment. I haven’t given up on my dream, and the dream isn’t going to expire anytime soon. I think our biggest flaw as humans is that we think just because something hasn’t happened yet, you’re not doing the best you can or not working hard enough. There are days where we probably could do more, but if we let our dream die, THEN we have failed. Until then, we haven’t failed at all.

Our worst critic is ourselves, but we can also be our biggest fan. Our mentalities control our actions, and if we learn to change our mentalities from less critical to more optimistic, we can thrive so much better. The world we live in supplies so much pressure in life as it is, we don’t need our own selves to add anymore. This doesn’t mean to not push yourself or to not try as hard, but to remember that it’s okay to not be exactly where you thought you would be, and it’s okay to fail sometimes, it’s okay to be disappointed or to not always be the best. But it’s not okay to give up or provide excuse after excuse on why you’re procrastinating. Life isn’t going to wait for us to finally decide when we’re ready to leap, but it will provide us with endless possibilities and opportunities. Take them!

Give yourself a break- you’re doing the best you can, but don’t let that be your excuse a year from now. Keep moving forward and working hard; God has big plans for your life, don’t let them slip away.

Wake Up Call- My Health Scares Since 19

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When I was 19 years old, I was a sophomore in college. Everything was pretty normal-I had great friends, was doing good in school, and I “thought” I was healthy. My health was a slow crawl downhill, something unnoticeable up until it was an obvious problem. One day I started feeling completely different and unlike myself. I hit an exhaustion unknown to me, and far worse than an average “tired college student”. I would get a great night’s sleep, wake up, only to be overwhelmingly tired just an hour later. A tired where I NEEDED to sleep. I would be cold and out of it, and just unable to focus. I was in a morning class one day, I remember it was math. Something didn’t feel right, and I knew I needed to leave. I called my mom crying, exhausted, and ready to make an appointment with my doctor.

At 19 I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Few people my age have it, but it’s not completely uncommon to get it this young. Hypothyroidism is a disease that is more likely to develop in your 50’s and beyond. This disease means you have an under-active thyroid; your body attacks your thyroid and therefore does not get the hormones that the thyroid is supposed to be sending out. After getting some tests done, normal levels for proper working thyroids are between 0 and 5, and mine was a 25.

I was put on medicine that I have to take everyday for the rest of my life. It freaked me out that this was something incurable, something I would deal with forever. I’ve always been scared of it developing into something worse, like cancer. (That’s just my anxiety talking, but still scares me!) Hypothyroidism is not uncommon, but it’s stressful. My days are always different, some days I can be way more tired than usual, or just fine. The hormones in my medicine and my birth control sometimes affect me because of all the hormone intake my body is having. It’s been a real struggle.

When I was 20 I had to get an ultrasound on an artery in my neck. That was the scariest thing I’ve done. Plaque was building up, and my doctor warned that if I didn’t really crack down on my diet and exercise, it would only get worse. I was 20 and plaque was already building up. I wasn’t an unhealthy person then, but I didn’t take everything so seriously when it came to food and the gym.

21 was not my healthiest year. I don’t think I need to further explain that one, but now at 22 I have sincerely cracked down on everything. To me, it’s personal. Working out and eating right is not about being skinny for me, it’s literally about my thyroid, and not building up anymore plaque in my arteries. It’s more serious for me to be a more healthy person. Our bodies send messages, and mine was telling me that I needed to be careful. It is a noticeable difference for me if I don’t take my medicine for a few days. It makes me sad to think I am so young dealing with this and possible future issues, but I’m doing what I need to do and that’s all I can do in this moment. I am thankful that it isn’t worse.

This message is to share that you do not have to be old to have health issues, it can be any age and mine started at 19. Be careful about what you’re always eating and drinking. There are days to have fun, but most days you need to be serious about what you are putting in your body. Activity is key, and working out is so important. Be thankful for your health, and remember, things could always be worse. Take care and love your body, and it will love you back.

Never Stop Learning – Never Stop Dreaming

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Since graduating college I thought I would be so grateful to be done with school, and I definitely am, but I will always have the yearning in myself to continue learning. I have a list of things I want to know more about, and a list of things I want to try. But I think as humans, we think that once we are done with school the learning stops there, and that is so so false. As humans with huge intellectual capacities, we should push and push and continue learning everything and anything. We should seek out the subjects that peak our interests, and wander into new ones we never thought that much about.

‘Joe Rogan Experience #1201 – William von Hippel’ has been one of the most eye-opening videos I have ever watched. I don’t agree with 50% of the content in it, BUT they talk about continuing to learn and read and expand our minds, and that is something I absolutely concur with.

I’m only 22 and have so much I will accomplish in my life, but even when I’m 70 I will continue to dream and explore life. I think everyone, no matter what age, should continue their education and continue dreaming the biggest they can. It does not mean we have to enroll ourselves back into school, but we can go out and learn on our own. If the financial ability supports it, then go back to school if that’s what you desire! Or just take a couple classes for fun. Southeast Community College has a ‘Continuing Education’ section, which holds a multitude of courses! We should take advantage of the learning opportunities that surround us, because the US is so much more fortunate than other countries in the education department.

Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty. Anyone who keeps learning stays young. -Henry Ford

No matter what age, we should continue learning, continue expanding, and continue dreaming!! Our capacity does not have a limit, but you might be limiting yourself if you don’t think you have to continue learning. You have no idea what you could find yourself stepping into if you just listen to that yearning for learning inside of you. (I’m sorry for the rhyming and cheesiness, but get over it.)

Make goals to read a book a month, learn a new language at your own pace, take a fun cooking class, learn about human cells, or the planets/ stars/ asteroids/ the orbits in space! Just continue learning, and never stop dreaming. It’s never too late and you are never too old to learn and follow your dreams.

Learn how to say “No”

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Learning how to say “no” is a lesson I’m definitely still trying to grasp. I never want to say “no” to hanging out with a friend, miss a chance to spend time with my family, or if someone needs a helping hand, but sometimes it can be overwhelming always saying “yes”.

Don’t get me wrong, I love filling up my free time! Especially with being single, I find myself ALWAYS busy doing something! Let’s face it, this could be considered a “good” problem to have, but not all the time. When the weekends arrive, I kid you not, I already have next week’s schedule filled up and planned, but sometimes I think “Wow, I wish I hadn’t said yes, I really just want to stay home.” And this is what I’m talking about. I don’t have to say “yes” to everything! We all have the right to say, “That sounds really fun, but I think I’m going to have to pass this time!”

Trust me, I know it can be hard to say “no” sometimes, especially if you’re a social butterfly like me that loves to do fun things, but even for the busy-bees, we have to learn to say “no” so we can have a day to ourselves, to do absolutely nothing, and wind down. I get stuck between wanting to be a good friend who tries to balance everyone, and someone who just wants to go home to do things I never have time to do. What I’m really bad about is 1. Saying yes to everything, but 2. Literally having a free day, but then someone asks to do something and then I say yes! I’ll think to myself, “Ok, that really does sound fun, but what the fuck, I should’ve said no.” Because some days, I just want to go work out, come home and watch Gilmore Girls while folding my laundry! How boring, yet relaxing, does that sound??

Balancing your friends and family is very important, but putting yourself IN THAT balance is equally as important! We must put ourselves first sometimes, and by sometimes I mean most of the time! This is the healthy living that I’ve been preaching about. It first starts with a positive mentality and good attitudes, but then taking the necessary actions of putting yourself in a healthy life and living that healthy lifestyle. I’m still actively working on this myself, and I’m learning everyday what I need to do that makes me happy, and what protects ME.

Moral of the story: We shouldn’t feel obligated to say “yes” to everything and everyone. In fact, we have every right to say “no”. For me, this is so much easier said than done, but we all deserve at least a couple of days to ourselves, to do whatever we want, and it all starts with saying “no”.

My Pet Peeve About the Word ‘Sorry’

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The word ‘Sorry’ has got to be the top five most over-used words in the English language- if it’s not, then I’m shocked. The word gets tossed around and shuffled so much that sometimes the meaning is truly useless.

The worst part is when you’re talking with someone, they say the word, and you just KNOW they don’t even mean it. (Example below)

And then I react like…

My reaction (without getting hit by a bus of course)

The over usage of ‘sorry’ is one of my biggest pet peeves, because I never use it when I don’t mean it, or if I’m trying to get someone to shut up.

The google search below is the definition of ‘sorry’ for anyone that needs a reminder of WHEN TO REALLY USE IT.

A “feeling of distress”, “sympathy”, “feeling regret”…

Where in there does it say, “Hey, when you need to end a conversation or to get someone to get over a situation, just throw out this word and all will be well again!!!!” And if you’re going to say ‘sorry’ without meaning it, try not to add an eye roll or a disgusted look when speaking it, because if I didn’t catch it by your tone, I definitely noticed the less-than-meaningful ‘sorry’ by your face.

So to finish Regina George’s sentence,

*Clears throat*


YOU CAN TAKE THAT FAKE APOLOGY AND SHOVE IT RIGHT UP YOUR HAIRY ASS.

This is for everyone: Don’t use it unless you mean it. It loses its meaning, and who is going to really know when you mean it when you actually do? Honesty is more important than fake words or lies.

So buck up, and use it when it’s actually meaningful to both parties involved…the fakeness will always be evident and noticeable.

Please and Thank you.

Why Disappointment Is The Worst Feeling Of All

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Lately I’ve had my fair share of disappointments and disappointing others. It really is worse than anger or just sadness alone, because disappointment first starts off with a glimmer of hope, an excitement almost, but then the action happens, and then you’re left with sadness/ anger/ confusion/ and the feeling of being let down. Disappointment is a feeling that is harder to go away; you’re more frustrated with yourself, because you let yourself feel hope, only for it to be taken away.

I’m disappointed with myself because I let others get close enough where I let them disappoint me. I’m disappointed with how I let myself feel hope, only for it to be gone in a matter of seconds. I thought things would be fine, or that a person’s mind would change, but the thing with disappointment is, that it pairs greatly with expectations you had that were not met. Having expectations that do not pan out leads to the inevitable feeling of disappointment.

I’m disappointed with others and how they treat me. I know I’m not perfect, but I see the best in others. I feel the glimmer of hope of maybe a changed mindset or changed actions, but it left me hurt and disappointment and with a crushed heart. I guess it’s hard because you know how you are, and how people should treat you, but it’s never how it should be. People can be arrogant and they can be selfish. They don’t understand that the best and worst quality of a person is their heart, and when they have yours in the palm of their hand, it’s mistreated and taken advantage of.

Disappointment allows you to grow, but it unfortunately is the foundation of a guard you feel yourself start to put up. It teaches you a lesson, and serves as a reminder as to how good your heart is for having hope in the first place, but to also remind you that hoping can be dangerous. People will continuously disappoint you all your life, but you can only work on you and you not giving someone else that same feeling. Keep your heart big, but maybe keeping that guard up, to protect your heart, wouldn’t be such a bad idea either.

Everyone Deserves To Be Loved

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There are people in this world that repress love in all forms. They will unintentionally, or intentionally, push away the ones that love them the most. There are multiple reasons why someone could be doing this. It could be stemmed from childhood memories, or how they grew up. Could be from previous relationships that did not end well. It could be because that person does not know how to love themselves firstly, and is having a hard time expressing a love to another. What I do know for certain though is: Everyone deserves to be loved. Everyone.

You could be the kindest person, or one who views themselves as unlovable, but ultimately, whoever you are, you deserved to be loved. And that can be so scary. I know how it feels to feel unlovable. My first boyfriend made me feel invaluable and not special. He made me feel as though I couldn’t do better, but eventually I found my way and I moved on to someone else! Although I’m single now, I know I deserve the best kind of love there is, just like everyone else.

What genuinely makes me sad is when people push away the ones that love them the most. My recent ex pushed me away, for multiple reasons, but linking this post to another, you cannot control the decisions of others, so whatever is meant to be, will be. He still deserves the best kind of love, even if he pushes it away.

The thing is, we’re all scared of love. It pushes you to be vulnerable and to trust someone fully, and that could potentially lead to heartbreak. Personally, I feel very scared to love again. I know how it feels to break so gruesomely on the inside, and I never want to go through that again. I know how it feels to feel the worst kind of disappointment. I know how it feels to wonder why it didn’t work out, and why you weren’t enough. I know how it feels to feel every kind of sadness there is. Honestly, I’m not looking forward to opening myself up to someone new, or to “start over”. It scares the shit out of me actually. And secretly, I don’t want to do it. It’s not like I’m searching anyway; I’m more focused on working on myself to be honest, but when I do run into a new potential love– I know it’s going to scare me. But here I am, reminding myself just as I am reminding you: we all deserve the best and the most pure kind of love there is. A love that does not fail. A love that is full of happiness, sadness, trust, laughter, friendship, strength, and everything else there is that love provides. It will not be perfect, but it will be everything we need. It will be worth the wait..and guess what? When it finally does come, we’ll deserve it!

I wonder

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I would be lying if I said I didn’t think about you all the time and wonder what life has been like for you these past three months. I would be lying if I said I didn’t hate you, or that I didn’t love you. In fact, I would be the biggest liar in Nebraska if I said I didn’t think any of those things.

I do wonder about you…all the time, actually. It’s days like today where it gets me down thinking about how I’m not the one you choose to spend some of your days with. It hurts to think I’m not the one you talk about your days to. And it especially hurts knowing you aren’t my partner in crime, my best friend anymore.

I wonder what your life routine is like now. I wonder if you’re happy, and not the happy you tell other people, but if you’re actually doing good deep down. I wonder if you even wonder about me.

I wonder why you couldn’t be mature enough for a relationship with me. I wonder when you’ll finally realize what you lost, and how much it fucking sucks for me. And I wonder if you even care.