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Why ‘Come Back To Earth’ by Mac Miller is a masterpiece and so relatable

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My two favorite things about music are the beats and how relatable lyrics can be. It impresses me more when artists write their own songs, especially about personal feelings and experiences. ‘Come Back To Earth’ is a song that I really related to when I was going through a bit of darkness five months ago. When I listen to it now, I feel so many different emotions. Mainly I feel sadness; this song reminds me of pain from what I went through and felt, but I actually mainly feel sad for Malcolm. I genuinely feel the pain and sadness in his voice, and the depressive state he had to have been in when writing and producing this song. I definitely feel chills when I listen to this song…it’s crazy what a single person can be going through and no one even knows, but here he is laying it out for all of us to listen to.

I love this song so much, and it’s weird to love a sad song, but I love it for what it means to me, and how it makes me feel that Mac and I were connected for those two minutes and forty two seconds. I really want to break down most of the lyrics in this song, just to point out how truly deep this song is and why it’s so relatable for so many people.


My regrets look just like texts I shouldn’t send.

And I’ve got neighbors they’re more like strangers,

we could be friends

Here the first lyrics of the whole song is something that we’ve all done. He lays out that the words he has texted were some that he shouldn’t have sent. Not only can you regret sending certain texts, but we can also look back and regret some of the things we say to others. Also, the second and third line scream isolation. To me it sounds like he was very much alone in that house alone, but also in a sense alone in his head and alone in what he was feeling and going through.


In my own way, this feel like living

Some alternate reality

A lot of us are aware of the heavy drug use Mac would do, so to me, this is a reference to that. When on that kind of stuff you feel like a different person, numb from the pain that is currently going on in life. So many people escape reality to find happiness in toxicity. He probably found this “alternate reality” comforting from what he was going through at the time, and it was his form of “living” and coping. Sadly enough, a lot of depressed people (not everyone) go to drugs for relief.

Yeah, oh the things I’d do

To spend a little time in hell

And what I won’t tell you

I’ll probably never even tell myself

These last two line could be an underlying meaning of denial. Obviously it’s unclear what about, but I think he was fully aware of what issues he had, but didn’t want to address them head-on. And I think that’s a very relatable issue we all have on the inside. We all have our demons and flaws, but some of us aren’t willing to bring attention to them to either fix them or live with them. I think he was aware of all the issues that were hard for him, but didn’t want to admit them to himself.

And don’t you know the sunshine don’t feel right

When you inside all day

I wish it was nice out, but it looked like rain

Grey skies and I’m drifting, not living forever

They told me it only gets better

This is the second hardest part of the song for me, because of how chilling it is. He obviously spent many days cooped up in his home, and maybe didn’t get out very much. Again, definitely a thing we do when depressed. The last line screams truth, because I’m sure he was told that specific line multiple times. It was definitely something I was told when I was going through my rough patch. I just wish he could have seen that light at the end of the tunnel because life really does eventually get better.

I just need a way out of my head

I’ll do anything for a way out

Of my head

Now THIS is the hardest part of the song for me personally. I relate to these lines so so much just because when you are going through something, your brain is always eating away at you, and your thoughts don’t ever stop running around, and you seriously just want it to end. I probably cried so many times listening to this song, because I really felt the pain along with him. There were so many times where I wished I could get out of my head and stop the chaotic thoughts that were constantly there.

Being in an unhealthy, unhappy, hard and depressed state of mind is truly the hardest thing to do. It’s hard to do what seemed like “normal” activities at one point in your life, and it’s hard to try to pull yourself out of it. I truly relate to this song on a different level, because life can be so fucking hard sometimes. This song is a masterpiece, honestly. The music is not like his normal upbeat sound. The melody with the lyrics all flowed so well together. The words are relatable and complex. The title alone: ‘Come Back To Earth’ is also probably another remind for others and himself to pull yourself out of this “alternate state”, this hard time, and bring yourself back to the present and push yourself through what you’re going through. This song isn’t a “you got this, you can pull through!” type of song. It’s on the other side of the spectrum. It’s telling us what you feel and think and go through when you’re depressed and extremely down, and for that, I think it should be highly respected and honored.

The Mac we should all remember.

Why Disappointment Is The Worst Feeling Of All

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Lately I’ve had my fair share of disappointments and disappointing others. It really is worse than anger or just sadness alone, because disappointment first starts off with a glimmer of hope, an excitement almost, but then the action happens, and then you’re left with sadness/ anger/ confusion/ and the feeling of being let down. Disappointment is a feeling that is harder to go away; you’re more frustrated with yourself, because you let yourself feel hope, only for it to be taken away.

I’m disappointed with myself because I let others get close enough where I let them disappoint me. I’m disappointed with how I let myself feel hope, only for it to be gone in a matter of seconds. I thought things would be fine, or that a person’s mind would change, but the thing with disappointment is, that it pairs greatly with expectations you had that were not met. Having expectations that do not pan out leads to the inevitable feeling of disappointment.

I’m disappointed with others and how they treat me. I know I’m not perfect, but I see the best in others. I feel the glimmer of hope of maybe a changed mindset or changed actions, but it left me hurt and disappointment and with a crushed heart. I guess it’s hard because you know how you are, and how people should treat you, but it’s never how it should be. People can be arrogant and they can be selfish. They don’t understand that the best and worst quality of a person is their heart, and when they have yours in the palm of their hand, it’s mistreated and taken advantage of.

Disappointment allows you to grow, but it unfortunately is the foundation of a guard you feel yourself start to put up. It teaches you a lesson, and serves as a reminder as to how good your heart is for having hope in the first place, but to also remind you that hoping can be dangerous. People will continuously disappoint you all your life, but you can only work on you and you not giving someone else that same feeling. Keep your heart big, but maybe keeping that guard up, to protect your heart, wouldn’t be such a bad idea either.

Everyone Deserves To Be Loved

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There are people in this world that repress love in all forms. They will unintentionally, or intentionally, push away the ones that love them the most. There are multiple reasons why someone could be doing this. It could be stemmed from childhood memories, or how they grew up. Could be from previous relationships that did not end well. It could be because that person does not know how to love themselves firstly, and is having a hard time expressing a love to another. What I do know for certain though is: Everyone deserves to be loved. Everyone.

You could be the kindest person, or one who views themselves as unlovable, but ultimately, whoever you are, you deserved to be loved. And that can be so scary. I know how it feels to feel unlovable. My first boyfriend made me feel invaluable and not special. He made me feel as though I couldn’t do better, but eventually I found my way and I moved on to someone else! Although I’m single now, I know I deserve the best kind of love there is, just like everyone else.

What genuinely makes me sad is when people push away the ones that love them the most. My recent ex pushed me away, for multiple reasons, but linking this post to another, you cannot control the decisions of others, so whatever is meant to be, will be. He still deserves the best kind of love, even if he pushes it away.

The thing is, we’re all scared of love. It pushes you to be vulnerable and to trust someone fully, and that could potentially lead to heartbreak. Personally, I feel very scared to love again. I know how it feels to break so gruesomely on the inside, and I never want to go through that again. I know how it feels to feel the worst kind of disappointment. I know how it feels to wonder why it didn’t work out, and why you weren’t enough. I know how it feels to feel every kind of sadness there is. Honestly, I’m not looking forward to opening myself up to someone new, or to “start over”. It scares the shit out of me actually. And secretly, I don’t want to do it. It’s not like I’m searching anyway; I’m more focused on working on myself to be honest, but when I do run into a new potential love– I know it’s going to scare me. But here I am, reminding myself just as I am reminding you: we all deserve the best and the most pure kind of love there is. A love that does not fail. A love that is full of happiness, sadness, trust, laughter, friendship, strength, and everything else there is that love provides. It will not be perfect, but it will be everything we need. It will be worth the wait..and guess what? When it finally does come, we’ll deserve it!